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The golden rule in life for me is to never ever assume unless otherwise stated. Always works. Its when we start expecting that things happen the way we want to that we start to put ourselves in danger. Probably, the best way to hurt yourself is to let yourself fall into a fairy tale which you know deep inside won’t happen. Trust your instincts. If you don’t feel right, the most probably, it won’t. If you don’t to feel broken, then don’t out yourself out into a make believe that everything will be perfect and that everything will work out well. Because, in reality, life will never be perfect. We will never get whatever we want because life is a bitch. People will always look down on you at some point because you’re either fat or ugly or poor. Never assume when someone makes you feel the other way without even explicitly telling you. Never assume. Never let your heart be open because its when we have an open heart where we get hurt. Life is a bitch, and you have to be at least a step bitchier so as to avoid pain. Never believe in people who make you feel special without even knowing why they do so. Never trust. Never fall into traps.
Perhaps, I am writing this because I feel broken. Yes I am. I will continue to be in the next days and I will continue to put a smile on my face because honestly, no one will care if I do breakdown in front of them. Yes. No one cares and you have to probably be broken hearted to feel that. Because, probably, it is in being broken where we try to search every shattered piece of us and find strength, learn, and eventually pinpoint what went wrong. It is in being broken where we learn that people won’t care. That people will always make you feel crap because after all, life is a game of surviving and getting through pass each other.